I was just reading some of the posts from my earlier blogging days. The only consistent thing i got from that period was that i typed like an idiot. What were you thinking younger jiji? At least you were somewhat funny then.

And on my playlist, after Ed Sheeran's Save Myself is his Shape of You. The genre of music is so different and yet so apt. He is just so talented.

Ed Sheeran - Save Myself

I gave all my oxygen to people that could breathe

I gave away my money and now we don't even speak

I drove miles and miles, but would you do the same for me?

Oh, honestly?

Offered off my shoulder just for you to cry upon

Gave you constant shelter and a bed to keep you warm

They gave me the heartache and in return I gave a song

It goes on and on

Life can get you down so I just numb the way it feels

I drown it with a drink and out-of-date prescription pills

And all the ones that love me they just left me on the shelf

No farewell

So before I save someone else, I've got to save myself

I gave you all my energy and I took away your pain

'Cause human beings are destined to radiate or drain

What line do we stand upon, 'cause from here it looks the same

And only scars remain

Life can get you down so I just numb the way it feels

I drown it with a drink and out-of-date prescription pills

And all the ones that love me they just left me on the shelf

No farewell

So before I save someone else, I've got to save myself

But if I don't

Then I'll go back

To where I'm rescuing a stranger

Just because they needed saving just like that

Oh, I'm here again

Between the devil and the danger

But I guess it's just my nature

My dad was wrong

'Cause I'm not like my mum

'Cause she'd just smile and I'm complaining in a song

But it helps

So before I save someone else

I've got to save myself

Life can get you down so I just numb the way it feels

I drown it with a drink and out-of-date prescription pills

And all the ones that love me they just left me on the shelf

No farewell

So before I save someone else, I've got to save myself

And before I blame someone else, I've got to save myself

And before I love someone else, I've got to love myself

"If you can't figure out how to have a simple date with a woman who's already agreed to go out with you, then maybe you don't deserve to go out with her in the first place." - Donna, Suits.

That's just classic Donna.

Guns 'N' Roses - Welcome to the Jungle

Welcome to the jungle we've got fun and games
We got everything you want honey, we know the names
We are the people that can find whatever you may need
If you got the money honey we got your disease

In the jungle, welcome to the jungle
Watch it bring you to your knnn knne knees, knees
I want to watch you bleed

Welcome to the jungle we take it day by day
If you want it you're gonna bleed but it's the price to pay
And you're a very sexy girl that's very hard to please
You can taste the bright lights but you won't get there for free
In the jungle welcome to the jungle
Feel my, my, my serpentine
Ooh, I want to hear you scream

Welcome to the jungle it gets worse here every day
Ya learn to live like an animal in the jungle where we play
If you hunger for what you see you'll take it eventually
You can have everything you want but you better not take it from me

In the jungle, welcome to the jungle
Watch it bring you to your knnn knne knees, knees
I want to watch you bleed

And when you're high you never ever want to come down
So down, so down, so down, yeah

You know where you are?
You're down in the jungle baby, you're gonna dieee
In the jungle welcome to the jungle
Watch it bring you to your knees, knees
In the jungle welcome to the jungle
Feel my, my, my serpentine
In the jungle welcome to the jungle
Watch it bring you to your knees, knees
In the jungle welcome to the jungle
Watch it bring you to you
Its gonna bring you down, ha!!

Michael Jackson - Man in the Mirror

I'm gonna make a change
For once in my life
It's gonna feel real good
Gonna make a difference
Gonna make it right

As I, turn up the collar on
My favorite winter coat
This wind is blowing my mind
I see the kids in the streets
With not enough to eat
Who am I to be blind?
Pretending not to see their needs

A summer disregard, a broken bottle top
And a one man soul
They follow each other on the wind ya' know
'Cause they got nowhere to go
That's why I want you to know

I'm starting with the man in the mirror
I'm asking him to change his ways
And no message could have been any clearer
If you want to make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself, and then make a change

I've been a victim of a selfish kind of love
It's time that I realize
That there are some with no home, not a nickel to loan
Could it be really me, pretending that they're not alone?

A willow deeply scarred, somebody's broken heart
And a washed-out dream
They follow the pattern of the wind ya' see
'Cause they got no place to be
That's why I'm starting with me

I'm starting with the man in the mirror
I'm asking him to change his ways
And no message could have been any clearer
If you want to make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself, and then make a change

I'm starting with the man in the mirror
I'm asking him to change his ways
And no message could have been any clearer
If you want to make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself and then make that
Change!

I'm starting with the man in the mirror
(Oh yeah!)
I'm asking him to change his ways
(Better change!)
No message could have been any clearer
If you want to make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself and then make the change)
You gotta get it right, while you got the time
You can't close your, your mind!

(Then you close your, mind!)
That man, that man, that man, that man
With the man in the mirror
(Man in the mirror, oh yeah!)
That man, that man, that man
I'm asking him to change his ways
(Better change!)
No message could have been any clearer
If you want to make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself and then make the change

Oh no, no no

I'm gonna make a change
It's gonna feel real good!
Chime on!
(Change)
Just lift yourself
You know
You've got to stop it
Yourself!
(Yeah! Make that change!)
I've got to make that change, today!
Hoo!
(Man in the mirror)
You got to
You got to not let yourself
Brother
Hoo!
(Yeah! Make that change!)
You know, I've got to get
That man, that man
(Man in the mirror)
You've got to move! Chime on!
Chime on!
You got to
Stand up! Stand up! Stand up!
(Yeah! Make that change)
Stand up and lift yourself, now!
(Man in the mirror)
You know it!
You know it!
You know it!
You know it
(Change)
Make that change

I am a committed, trusting and compassionate man!

The Four Crucial Leadership Characteristics

Compelling Desire
Solid Belief
Effective Action
Iron Will

The Six Leadership Distinctions

100% is possible, 100% of the time!
If it is to be, it is up to me!
Life is an enrollment game!
Team work, team players committed to a common vision!
My vision and commitment dictate my actions, not my feelings, assessments or evaluations!
I honour my word with actions!

An Ode to a Snail

I saw your empty shell lying on a stair,
And wondered what might have happened to have gotten you there.
Snails are often stepped on as people fail to care,
That snails, too, have a story that they would like to share,
One of grit, determination and tremendous dare!

A Tribute to Mr Lee Kuan Yew

This entry, as the title suggests, is my tribute to Mr Lee Kuan Yew. I won't be going into details of his life and all, it's well covered on the internet, in the press, textbooks, autobiographies, the number of  readings on him is just overwhelming . This will just be about his impact on me. My feelings and my thoughts.

Lee Kuan Yew 1923-2015

Let me start by saying, Thank you, Mr Lee Kuan Yew. Thank you.

Thank you for giving me the chance to worry about things like what movie to watch, what to have for dinner, should i take cab to work, should i tell the girl i adore that i liked her, what to get my parents for their birthdays, should i turn on the aircon and other million similar worries.

Thank you for giving me those worries instead of worries like where am i going to spend the night, when is my next meal, would i live to see the morning sun tomorrow?

All this is possible because you did all the worrying for my survival for me. I know i am not that special for you to specifically worry about. But because of your love for Singapore, and me being a Singaporean, by association, i got to enjoy the fruits of your labour.

I always loved you and the way you did the things which were necessary with conviction and clarity.

When Singapore started out, you were like a brother to the pioneer generation, digging it in, getting your hands dirty, striving together, fighting together.

Years passed and to the second generation, you were like a stern parent, guiding them, teaching them, showing them how things needed to be done and willing them on areas they were too young to understand or comprehend.

Even more years passed and to my generation, the third generation, you were like a patient grandparent. We were the younglings. We didn't experience or witness the hardships the previous two generations went through. You indulged our occasional whims with kindness but did not hesitate to right any issues which deeply concerned you. You realised we weren't open to too much control and adjusted your ways accordingly.

You have done so much for us and have so much for us to learn from.

From you, i learned that i must fight. Fight to defend what is dear to me. To not back down when things are bleak and seem improbable. To have a will of steel.

At the same time, you taught me to love. To be able to love a nation as deep as you did. To love a woman as much as you did. Your love with Madam Kwa Geok Choo was a beacon in a time when love is very much underrated and taken for granted. When you loved, you did not hold back. You gave your all. Your energy. Your time. Your thoughts.

Come, It's time to go.

You fought as hard as you loved. You loved with as much tenderness as the resolve you fought with.


You were worried that we wouldn't love Singapore as much as those who came before us and might forget all it took to get to where we are now. Don't worry. If there was anything to go by, this past week has shown how Singaporeans can come together, feel together and grieve together. The new generation has inherited your Will of Steel and will not forsake your life's work. We might not remember you so vividly and constantly in the days to come. But you will never be forgotten, fondly remembered and deeply appreciated.

To the Grandfather i never had the privilege of meeting in person, i won't promise to try to change the world like you did. But i will strive to make my life, the lives of people around me, the lives of fellow Singaporeans just a tad better.

Thank you for giving the opportunity to meet people on the world stage with an equal footing.


Thank you for giving the opportunity to be proficient in more than one language.

Thank you for giving the opportunity to have access to resources others can only dream of.

Thank you for giving the opportunity to be proud of being Singaporean.

Thank you for, even in your passing, your final act of uniting all Singaporeans as one people, one nation, one Singapore.

To end this tribute, this quote was one of many which struck me,


"As we acknowledge his passing, Mr Lee Kuan Yew’s given name in Chinese means 'light and brightness'. We would respectfully suggest that the world is a little less light and a little less bright after his passing."
Ms Tracey Martin, Deputy Leader of New Zealand First

"爷爷, 一路好走"

#RememberingLeeKuanYew #ThankYouSir #GoodbyeAndThankYou #人中之龙

People will notice the change in your attitude towards them but will not notice their behaviour which made you change.

Loyalty is a two-way street. If i'm asking for it from you, then you're getting it from me. - Harvey Specter

夜深人静时真的好想你。

元宵节快乐. 元宵节 has recently became one of my favourite festivals. Simply due to how it's named.

Joyous music every where. Only one person in my mind. The onlY.

Riddle me this.

Jay Chou's songs have had a huge impact on chinese pop culture but the song in the previous post has an even greater impact on me. Riddle me this. WhY?

千里之外。

Sometimes, when i'm lost. I get reaffirmation from the least likeliest people. Thanks Cat. I will believe.

The law of attraction.

2015 - Goat vs. Ox

The year of the Goat is upon us. To be more exact, the year of the Wood Goat. As you might know, well, if you didn't already know, i was born in the year of the Ox, Wood Ox to be precise.

Being an Ox in this year of the Goat isn't exactly the best thing, according to Chinese Zodiac terms. As the Ox is the second sign, with the Goat being the eighth, Ox and Goat are directly opposite one another. Head on. Two herbivores head on could only mean one thing. Not enough food for one another.

The predictions for Ox are quite bad, the worst among all twelve signs.

Being at work for the first two days of the chinese new year. Getting injured, of sorts, and bleeding on the first day. Hearing somewhat disturbing updates on the third day. I do believe that the negative quota is up. And i will continue moving and fighting with a positive mindset. Opportunities present themselves in challenging times. So instead of viewing this year as something to beat me down with a stick, i choose to believe this instead.

Why must it be Goat vs Ox? Two herbivores. We can be good friends.

This will be a watershed year. One to elevate from being good to being great. This will be a good great year. This will be the year of the jiji.

And that's why..

..you're my bff.. i am very proud of you.. finding the blog and making the connection.. proud of you michelle ng chinlay! love you loads.. xoxo..

爱得深, 爱得早, 都不如爱的时候刚刚好。这次时候对了吗?

January hasn't been out of the norm. It's the same old throughout, mostly. But the month ended on a high.

I went Into The Woods, no, WE went Into The Woods.

It has been a while since i caught a movie at Orchard Cineleisure and even longer since i had so much excitement for a movie date. We missed the beginning of the movie due to dinner. If it was up to me, i really wouldn't mind missing the entire movie either, the company was awesome.

I really enjoyed the evening and hope the same can be said for you too. And yes, i will get your screen protector up.

Into the woods and awaY!

Just seeing a picture of you puts a smile on my face. i really wonder whY?

3am rant.

as usual, it's one of those nights where i ought to be asleep but i'm not. no, i'm not suffering from insomnia, just a lack of feel to sleep. tired, no doubt i am, i just don't feel like sleeping yet.

the constant struggle between a new beginning and old ties is tiring. i always had difficulty letting go and moving on. the constant nagging 'what a pity..' quite literally eats me up but today i had a new thought though. if i can't do what's hard and difficult, how can i prove that this is what i really want?

for once, i'm not even gonna ask anyone on this. just decide, by me and myself.

i'm sorry but it's time i let you go. you really aren't that good for me and it's time i stopped deluding myself. good Bye. i'm gonna miss you.

Just in. The first day of 2015 went pretty well.

A first date on the first day of the new year.

I hope this will continue to a second and a third and a fourth and a fifth...

It's incredible how comfortable and grounded it could feel, albeit the inevitable awkward moments.

Sporting and flexible. No need for fancy food and hipster cafes. Just simple and good old Bak Chor Mee and ice cream. Chatting from the coffeeshop to a neighbourhood restaurant.

 

It feels good. Real good. #TimeToStopHidingAndGetSerious ReallY.

2015

My first post of the year. Well, what can i say? Usually, it'll be some generic stuff, some new year resolution, the same old but brand new packaging. I guess i'm going to skip all that and cut to the chase.

2015. The year which i turn 30. Though i've been legal, adult and what not for a couple of years already. Turning 30 will be different and will put things into perspective. All that talk about 30 is the new 20, to me, is rubbish. 30 is 30, there's no two ways about it. It's time i start acting it.

To conclude this extremely short first post of the year, there are two directions i want to and hope to embark towards. First, i'll want to enjoy the moment, count my blessings, appreciate the people important to me more and make sure they know it. Secondly, i am going to man up, stop hiding (please insert jokes with references to me being huge and unable to hide at all), do the hard stuff, make the difficult decisions and just dig in when it gets tough.

2014 was about being #YOLO. 2015 is still about being #YOLO but with self challenging and thankful elements to it. #TimeToStopHidingAndGetSerious

That being said, jiji would like to wish one and all a very happy and fruitful 2015.

The first ever and much needed one on one lunch. How could soup spoon taste so wonderful?

Nobody ever said this was gonna be easy.

Nobody ever said this was gonna be easy. I just need to make sure i remember that. Even when things don't go according to plan.

If she's amazing, she won't be easy. If she's easy, she won't be amazing. If she's worth it, you won't give up. If you give up, you're not worthy. Truth is everybody is going to hurt you; you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for.

Another Reboot.

So i spent some time doing up my blog template and what not, guess this is another restart of me writing again. I hope this will last slightly longer than the previous attempts.

tibi, semper fidelis. amor vincit omnia.

Training is the process of getting the mind and body to the point where the heart desires.

I want to fight for you. If fighting for you means bettering myself, then better myself i will.

If you were a teardrop in my eye, for fear of losing you, i would never cry.

Maybe, in another universe.

Maybe, just maybe.

In another universe.
In another reality.
In another time.

You didn't disappear.

I spent these times with you.

Happy beyond words.

The days would mash into the nights and the nights into the days.

Lines of time blurred and bliss was all that remained.

As we prepare to part, we anticipate our next reunion.

Though bittersweet, the memories will be all that we have and yet sufficient to last us through.

The parting moment would be felt with so much sorrow and filled with equal, if not more, amounts of love. Darkness and light would intertwine in a beautiful melody of grey.

Sadly, no maybes.

I am in this universe.
This isn't an alternative reality.
And I am at this exact moment in time.

You disappeared.

I am alone, now and times gone by.

All anticipation which once was have been reduced to ashes.

That part of me, which you had access to, died.

That part of you, which i loved, is gone.

And if we were to ever cross paths again one day, i would tip my hat and be on my way.

What is left of me will never bear to look at what is left of you.

Maybe just maybe, that part of you is together with that part of me.

That longing would be complete.

Just not in this universe, not in this reality, not in this time.

It really has been a journey of self discovery. I feel much stronger already.

This struck home.

Gemini would rather be naive than know the depressing truth. Trust me. We know. We just act like we don't.

心里揪着揪着疼

Maybe one day.

Maybe one day, you'll see past what's on the outside to see what's deep inside and see me for who i really am.

Maybe one day, it wouldn't matter how you see me on the outside as it'll reflect how i truly am deep inside.

Maybe one day.

That day is coming.

And so it begins, again. Interaction.

I'm bored. And i'm in the train. So i thought to myself. What a perfect time to blog and pen my thoughts!

Recently, i've been looking back on certain instances when a joke almost developed into a feisty situation. It usually is a fine fine line between humour and insensitivity.

When people get comfortable, they open up. The act of opening up shows trust. Trust that you're free to express your view and that it'll be taken with a pinch of salt, without it being personal.

Sadly, that isn't always the case. Both parties may not be on the same page. One might feel more comfortable than the other actually is. And when in a group chat setting, where messages are communicated without tone of voice, pauses and facial expressions, one is often misunderstood.

The onus is on the individual to try not to say anything which might provoke a unfriendly retort. Unless you're out to hurt, then by all means let it rip.

And if we're the one receiving the information, try to give the other party the benefit of doubt. The relationship would have been at a certain level before one might feel comfortable so why jeopardise all that with the misunderstanding of a careless remark?

In this day and age, loads of our communication takes place digitally. Let us practice digital social etiquette. Digital communication is here to stay, we might as well make it productive and enjoyable.

ps. suddenly, i'm reminded of 宫心计's 刘三好's famous saying, "做好事, 说好话, 存好心".

Just because you want to be treated like a princess and someone treats you like a princess, doesn't mean he's your prince.

For you? No. For me.

Sometimes, the smallest things enable people to make the biggest decisions. This is the end of Dis "For you" series.

For you.

=)

I don't how it happened but my blog is turning to an extension of my twitter, which really doesn't make sense. I have stopped trying to intitate another blog-writing coming, considering that i've had so many failed over the years. Now, i'll just try to pen longer thoughts if this old brain of mine allows me to.

明明就不习惯牵手，为何却主动把手勾。

For You.

落花有意随流水,流水无情恋落花。

For you.

Weary.

For you.

For you, 生活可能不完美但这并不代表它不美。

For you.

It's tiring hearing no so often.

Timing

Timing is EVERYTHING.

The Blogger app is finally available for me!

For you.

This is for you.

 Here's a tissue for your issue. http://instagr.am/p/Mc8ZWKy_Lx/

To trust, first, you need to doubt.

Reboot.

If you only knew, you're all i ever wanted.

We stuff our stomaches silly because our hearts are empty.

Sometimes, it just gets so tiring.

百世修来同船度,千世修来共枕眠.

I am so bad at navigation. One wrong turn and i find myself back on Memory Lane.

I didn't choose. It was your choice which chose for me.

It's amazing the clarity that comes at 6am in the morning.

五月天 - 我不願讓你一個人

I am freaking addicted to this song. I think i have listened to it no less than a hundred times these couple of days. It really is on mad repeat.

你說呢 明知你不在 還是會問
空氣 卻不能代替你 出聲
習慣 像永不癒合 的固執傷痕
一思念就撕裂靈魂

把相片 讓你能保存 多洗一本
毛衣 也為你準備多 一層
但是 你孤單時刻 安慰的體溫
怎麼為你多留一份


我不願讓你一個人 一個人在人海浮沉
我不願你獨自走過 風雨的 時分
我不願讓你一個人 承受這世界的殘忍
我不願眼淚陪你到 永恆

你走後 愛情的遺跡 像是空城
遺落你杯子手套和 笑聲
最後 你只帶走你 脆弱和單純
和我最放不下的人
也許未來 你會找到 懂你疼你 更好的人
下段旅程 你一定要 更幸福豐盛

我不願讓你一個人 一個人在人海浮沉
我不願你獨自走過 風雨的 時分
我不願讓你一個人 承受這世界的殘忍
我不願眼淚陪你到 永恆

你說呢 明知你不在 還是會問
只因 習慣你滿足的 眼神
只是 我最後一個 奢求的可能
只求你有快樂人生

只求命運 帶你去一段 全新的旅程
往幸福的天涯飛奔
別回頭就往前飛奔
請忘了我還 一個人

If you want to feed the pigeons, BRING THEM HOME!

Special delivery! I totally can feel the love! #EggsBenedict!

No #BrusselsSprouts but at least there's #Broccoli!

Monday is Saladay!

Valentine's Day is like the annual bonus. People stick around for it long enough but once it's here, they revaluate and, more often than not, decide to move on.

The thing to make happy HAPPIER!

Is the mug half full or half empty? Neither. It's all happy.

Michael Schumacher

Picture with The Legend himself. What up.

Kids

Kids, nowadays, have a Messiah Complex. The system will not fail just because you fall sick. People will pick up the slack.Things are not THAT urgent and you are not THAT important. It is just data crunching. So stop painting the self sacrificial picture.

Mondays.

The day when work normally starts. The day which i usually dread. It signals the end of the previous weekend and is an indicator of the long way to the next. Sometimes, i feel sorry for the day, disliked for no fault of it's. I shall try to like Mondays more and hope that it ends on a high. Here's to a bluetiful Monday.

I guess we have established the fact that Karma is a bitch. Now, the question is how good can she count?

Karma is a bitch. She will get you. Eventually. Don't think that just because it's 3am in the morning, no one's watching. Big Brother is watching.

When i tell you that you deserve to be happy, it's true. I sincerely feel for you and your unrequited love. You can ask me when you see me.

I'm sorry, Rafael Nadal and Andy Murray, but your match just isn't able to make me lose sleep the way Novak Djokovic and Roger Federer's did.

US Open Men's Semi Finals 1

Novak Djokovic wins Roger Federer 3-2, after losing the first two sets. Roger really made it tough for himself but kudos to Novak for having the testicular fortitude. Balls of steel. Despite being on the back foot most of the match, Novak played with a smile and believed in himself. Attitude of a Champion.

Ok. Tony Tan won. He is now the 7th President of Singapore.

Should i catch the Europe Super Cup between Barcelona and Porto? Nah. Don't think so. Tonight, sleep reigns.

I feel like catching Tavia tomorrow.

我有可能会眼花，偶尔会口花花，但我的心绝对一点都不花。

Having KFC breakfast is the perfect way to start a Friday, pity there isn't any hash brown.

Android really should have a proper blogging app. The one by Google is not available on my phone yet and that totally sucks.

It is interesting to know that a lot of people in Singapore boil their water before drinking when we have one of the cleanest sources around.

One Week Anniversary

My first post from my Samsung Galaxy S2. It's been a week since i made the transition from my trusty old Nokia N95 8GB and i'm loving it! This is so going to make me blog so much more frequently.

Honey, i'm home!

It has been a very long while since I last saw you. I miss you. It's been long. Too long.

It's that time of the year again. I miss you.

My Nokia N95 8GB is dying. I feel like changing my phone but I have no idea what to change to.

It is not as easy to blog on the phone as it is easy to tweet on the phone. The blogging interface took me so long to post that i almost gave up. It's not user friendly at all.

No two people or things have the same level of importance or emotional weightage. I should stop treating them like they do.

Maybe i should get a new phone. Yihan's phone was low on battery so he borrowed mine and wanted to record something. After fiddling for a while, he finally gave up and asked me for help. Dude, my phone is a Nokia N95 8GB. It does not have a touchscreen.

I am so disappointed that I feel like crying.

成功男人背后永远有个支持他的女人，可是成功女人背后总有道无法磨灭的伤痕.

Carrie always said my blog is full of football stuff. So, to not disappoint her, this is my ARSENAL wallpaper. Kindly contributed by Wee Keat.

After finishing the University of London's Principles of Banking and Finance paper yesterday, I was walking out of Singapore Expo Hall 9 when I saw this.
I have to admit it. This really requires some kahunas. How often do you throw away your notes right after you walk out of the examination venu? Like what I once tweeted about, it ain't over until the fat lady sings. But sometimes, the fat lady sings the wrong tune and hits all the wrong notes. I would like to see the faces of the owners of these notes in three months time IF the worst case scenario happened.

if you're not down with jiji then i've got 2 words for you

hey buddy, thanks for the call. a very simple but deeply appreciated gesture. =)

if only i were to meet you now, we would have been a better fit.

周杰伦 - 我不配

这街上太拥挤
太多人有秘密
玻璃上有雾气
在背影照进过去
你脸上的情绪
在怀念那场雨
这小弄太过完全 走不回过这里
这日子孤单里 又班驳了结局
剩下半空回忆的我在大房子
第一眼的注意
更遥远的距离
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋
还来不及
仔细心细
写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你
你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉已经不对
我努力在挽回
一些些应给的体贴
但感觉我没给
你如此碎的愿望
很卑微 在凋谢
是我忽略你不过要的安慰

这感觉已经不对
我最后才了解
一页页不能翻阅
但情节你好累
你我的卑微为我掉过几次泪而憔悴
而我心碎你受罪你的美
我不配

我不配 on loop in my head after meeting 曾愷玹