Sunday, January 18, 2015
Saturday, January 17, 2015
3am rant.
as usual, it's one of those nights where i ought to be asleep but i'm not. no, i'm not suffering from insomnia, just a lack of feel to sleep. tired, no doubt i am, i just don't feel like sleeping yet.
the constant struggle between a new beginning and old ties is tiring. i always had difficulty letting go and moving on. the constant nagging 'what a pity..' quite literally eats me up but today i had a new thought though. if i can't do what's hard and difficult, how can i prove that this is what i really want?
for once, i'm not even gonna ask anyone on this. just decide, by me and myself.
i'm sorry but it's time i let you go. you really aren't that good for me and it's time i stopped deluding myself. good Bye. i'm gonna miss you.
the constant struggle between a new beginning and old ties is tiring. i always had difficulty letting go and moving on. the constant nagging 'what a pity..' quite literally eats me up but today i had a new thought though. if i can't do what's hard and difficult, how can i prove that this is what i really want?
for once, i'm not even gonna ask anyone on this. just decide, by me and myself.
i'm sorry but it's time i let you go. you really aren't that good for me and it's time i stopped deluding myself. good Bye. i'm gonna miss you.
Thursday, January 01, 2015
Just in. The first day of 2015 went pretty well.
A first date on the first day of the new year.
I hope this will continue to a second and a third and a fourth and a fifth...
It's incredible how comfortable and grounded it could feel, albeit the inevitable awkward moments.
Sporting and flexible. No need for fancy food and hipster cafes. Just simple and good old Bak Chor Mee and ice cream. Chatting from the coffeeshop to a neighbourhood restaurant.
It feels good. Real good.#TimeToStopHidingAndGetSerious ReallY.
A first date on the first day of the new year.
I hope this will continue to a second and a third and a fourth and a fifth...
It's incredible how comfortable and grounded it could feel, albeit the inevitable awkward moments.
Sporting and flexible. No need for fancy food and hipster cafes. Just simple and good old Bak Chor Mee and ice cream. Chatting from the coffeeshop to a neighbourhood restaurant.
It feels good. Real good.
2015
My first post of the year. Well, what can i say? Usually, it'll be some generic stuff, some new year resolution, the same old but brand new packaging. I guess i'm going to skip all that and cut to the chase.
2015. The year which i turn 30. Though i've been legal, adult and what not for a couple of years already. Turning 30 will be different and will put things into perspective. All that talk about 30 is the new 20, to me, is rubbish. 30 is 30, there's no two ways about it. It's time i start acting it.
To conclude this extremely short first post of the year, there are two directions i want to and hope to embark towards. First, i'll want to enjoy the moment, count my blessings, appreciate the people important to me more and make sure they know it. Secondly, i am going to man up, stop hiding (please insert jokes with references to me being huge and unable to hide at all), do the hard stuff, make the difficult decisions and just dig in when it gets tough.
2014 was about being #YOLO. 2015 is still about being #YOLO but with self challenging and thankful elements to it.#TimeToStopHidingAndGetSerious
That being said, jiji would like to wish one and all a very happy and fruitful 2015.
2015. The year which i turn 30. Though i've been legal, adult and what not for a couple of years already. Turning 30 will be different and will put things into perspective. All that talk about 30 is the new 20, to me, is rubbish. 30 is 30, there's no two ways about it. It's time i start acting it.
To conclude this extremely short first post of the year, there are two directions i want to and hope to embark towards. First, i'll want to enjoy the moment, count my blessings, appreciate the people important to me more and make sure they know it. Secondly, i am going to man up, stop hiding (please insert jokes with references to me being huge and unable to hide at all), do the hard stuff, make the difficult decisions and just dig in when it gets tough.
2014 was about being #YOLO. 2015 is still about being #YOLO but with self challenging and thankful elements to it.
That being said, jiji would like to wish one and all a very happy and fruitful 2015.